Friday, December 8, 2023

December 2023. Evening Hill Diaries No. 9. Christmas thoughts from Crichel Point

 

Christmas thoughts from Crichel Point.

December 2023

I met a friend at the Bournemouth Symphony Orchestra concert where we listened to Brahms and to Mahler’s first symphony.  His wife played the cello in the orchestra for many years, including a stint under Rudolf Barshai, the Russian violist and conductor.  During a rehearsal performance of this symphony, Barshai was trying to explain to the double basses exactly the feeling he wanted them to transmit to the audience.  He reminded them that he and his string quartet had played at the funeral of Joseph Stalin in 1953.  ‘Of course’, he said, ‘Our faces were extremely solemn and sad; but inside we were filled with joy.  That is what I want you to feel’.  This anecdote perfectly encapsulates what Leonard Bernstein called Mahler’s ‘duality’, or in the words of William Blake, ‘Joy and Woe are woven fine’.

This metaphor could easily pass for 2023, where, within our families, we have experienced happiness and joy, but externally, with the woes in Ukraine, in Israel and Gaza, and the bizarre political upheavals in the UK, we cannot but be solemn.  Our outward solemnity, in 2023, is real.

I am sure we all feel some ‘survivor guilt’ in these times…

But we are well and enjoying a little more normality in life in 2023.  Lindsay’s knee replacement in 2022 is in the past and she is able to exercise freely.  Andrew’s prostate cancer is under control – PSA is zero – though he complains of the side effects of the Prostap injections – probably too much.  After all, hot flushes are a small price to pay!

So, it is with our families that we have had the most joy, and especially with grandchildren.  Katie is the last of our children to get married, and few of us are likely to forget the three-day event in the Chateau de Lerse in France.

As this time of year rolled round again, we enjoyed Grandson Louis’ indignation when he returned from school in late September: ‘Mummy.  Guess what the school play is this year?  It’s Jesus again!

Here are some pictures from 2023, and we wish you all a happy and peaceful Christmas, and for better to come in 2024.

Andrew and Lindsay McLeod


The New Year came in in London with a flurry of blue and yellow for Ukraine:



Holidays were more normal - we cycled in Dumfries and Galloway:



And sampled Scottish baronial style:



The weather improved - Coco and Louis at Sandbanks:



Innocent joy for Arlo - with Dad's bubble maker:



Lindsay and Teddy (A Junior Cherry) went to watch AFC Bournemouth:



Andrew went to Edinburgh:



Lindsay climbed mountains with Marina in Lenzerheide:



Katie and James married officially at Kingston Registry Office:



But partied in France:



And pool partied with Anna and baby grandson Arlo:



Proud father of the bride:



We cycled the Vendee to recover:



Tranquil scene near Niort:



We swam (Poole):



Last holiday of the year - cycling round Lake Constance:



The year drew to a close - late November walk near Colmers Hill, Bridport:



And winter patterns appeared:



We wish you a peaceful Christmas and a Happy New Year.

Sunday, November 19, 2023

Evening Hill Diaries - 8 - a warm October...

Early morning swim, Branksome Chine beach, 9th October 2023



We visit a friend in Somerset.  She lives in a tiny village near Castle Cary.  In the afternoon we walk the tracks and lanes in the steep sided valley of Hadspen, which lead towards Bruton (the trendy place for bucolitropic London celebrities who don’t wish to move to the Cotswolds).  Current residents include Stella McCartney, George Osborne, Alice Temperley, Sam Taylor-Johnson, Don McCullin, and other movers and shakers.

Our walk is interesting not because of the distant views of this little town but because our friend knows many of the farmers who allow us to walk through their apple orchards, heavily laden with apples destined for cider.  I try several different apples – all taste awful and it seems strange that nonetheless they will make wonderful cider.

Very close by is Hadspen House, formerly owned by the Hobhouse family – childhood friends of our host.  Relatively recently taken over by a South African industrialist who has transformed the gardens of the estate, which he has renamed ‘The Newt’ as a treasure house of apples from every county in England and a repository of rare varieties.  Fabulous cider on sale at fabulous prices.


The Newt


Cider orchards near Hadspen


October 7th

For the south (not Scotland) a dreamy spell of Indian Summer with temperatures set to reach 25 degrees today.  A visit this week to the wonderful West Sussex golf club.  The signature hole, a long drive across a lake, still has a marvellous show of water lilies.

6th Hole, West Sussex Golf Club


Some Swiss friends visited and had never seen the Agglestone – so here it is.


Agglestone Rock, Isle of Purbeck

And a regatta off Old Harry rocks (Handfast Point)

Old Harry rocks



And more hot weather.  But though we enjoy a few more days of record October temperatures, there is a major convulsion in the World Order on Saturday October 7th.  A substantial incursion of HAMAS fighters into Israel, and slaughter of many innocent families and children, including a summary massacre of some 250 or more people attending a music festival, irrespective of nationality.  One Israeli military commander likens it to ‘Our Nine-Eleven’, and when the body count is finally totted up the numbers will indeed likely be in the thousands.  Addendum: currently estimated 1400.

Israel, unsurprisingly responds in kind.  No doubt also irked by their intelligence failure to predict this coming.  We are now (October 10th) into the 4th day of a new middle-east war.

As if we needed another war…


October 17th

Over the last few days the temperature has plummeted.  We have gone from T-shirts to windproofs and beanies.  The Dorset Gentlemen’s Walking Society today braved chill temperatures and storm force winds, but bright sunshine.  Storm Babet arrives tomorrow, currently wending its way across the Atlantic.  Lovely Country trails with distant views of Crichel House and crossing and recrossing of the chalk stream River Allen, where some sizeable trout can be seen, tails waving in the current.

In these confusing times, and I speak of gender issues now, I have come across a quotation from Henry James in 1894, who was so perplexed at the new incursions of enlightened feminists (many wearing men’s clothes, or openly bisexual, and published in the famous ‘Yellow Book’) that he wrote in ‘The Death of the Lion’, a short story, of a character complaining: ‘In the age we live in, one gets lost amongst the genders and the pronouns.’  Perhaps reassuring to the heroic J K Rowling?  (Item courtesy Sara Lodge, Senior Lecturer in English at St Andrew’s University).  I saw an interview with Frederic Raphael recently in which he was asked about ‘woke’ issues and in particular about J K Rowling and the hate mail she has been subject to since her pronouncements on gender.  He did not hold back, particularly when asked about the attempts to dissociate themselves from, and criticise her views by the Harry Potter film franchise stars, Emma Watson, Rupert Grint, and Daniel Radcliffe.  ‘Little s…s’ was his verdict.  ‘She’s made them millionaires and this is how they reward her’.  (I may have slightly misquoted – but the expurgated phrase is exact).

 

October 29th, 2023

The day when the clocks go back and daylight is greater in the morning but less in the afternoon.  Terrible weather and appalling floods in Scotland recently.  Golf course closed frequently.  I braved the rain last weekend to cycle to the Bournemouth match against Wolves.  Lost 2-1.  Attended again yesterday – first win of the season versus Burnley, 2-1, though a neutral would have observed that they tried hard to lose it.

Main event this week was attendance at the hospital trust’s Governors Board meeting.  The minutes of the first part are in the public domain so I feel I can report my reactions fairly and without risk of breaching confidence.

I am not quite sure why I want to continue to be a Governor, other than at least trying to contribute in some small way, though the Governors’ role legally is restricted and very different from the role that other governing bodies fill, for example at schools and other institutions.  (In NHS Trusts, the non-executive directors are the direct supervisors of the CEO and Executive Board).  Perhaps it is a need to continue to try to do my best for local healthcare.  But I always find these meetings a little depressing.  Review of the hospitals’ performance is neatly contained in a monthly report called the IPR (Integrated Performance Report).  To keep things simple, a traffic light system indicates performance against national criteria (targets).  Frankly, it is a sea of red.  There are few areas where we reach what we are supposed to.  Financial report – gloomy – again.  There is always discussion around what we used to call ‘bed blockers’, subsequently the less demeaning term ‘patients medically fit for discharge’ and now a new slightly more woke term which is something like NCTR (No Criteria to Reside), the officially approved NHS term (honestly it is, you can Google it).  This gives a ‘Discharge Ready Date’ which of course differs from the actual discharge date.  We are apparently something of an outlier, and it is not related just to the age of our population.  We have some 200 patients who can be discharged but have nowhere to go to.

While musing about this, I recalled sitting in my first Fellows’ welcome and address speech at Duke University Medical Center, in 1981.  The address was given by the hugely famous Professor James B. Wyngaarden (expert on inborn errors of metabolism), Chairman of the Department of Medicine.  Wyngaarden was soon to be summoned from Duke to head the National Institutes of Health at the request of President Reagan.  This is a paraphrase of something he said: ‘At the time I am speaking to you new fellows and residents, the occupancy of our beds in Duke Hospital is 57%’, he said.  ‘And I am relying on your energy and competency to substantially increase that percentage over the coming year’.

To a refugee from the NHS (bed occupancies in excess of 98%), to say that I was dumbfounded would be an understatement.  But in the USA, empty beds make no money…


Along with our perusal of the IPR there is a new initiative mentioned.  It is called Patients First, and is apparently a national initiative together with the (inevitable) training modules.  I can scarcely believe my ears.  ‘Isn’t this what I have spent my medical life trying to do?’ is the thought bubble which floats above my head and is fortunately not noticed by others present.  The meeting draws to a close just after 7pm.  There is an American rock band called ‘Rage Against the Machine’, a feeling which comes to mind.  And Jonathan Swift’s epitaph, ‘He lies where savage indignation can no longer pierce his breast’.  I am not courageous but sometimes I feel that I wish I were a modern day Jonathan Swift.  Heads and brick walls also come to mind where the Leviathan of the Health Service is concerned.


I then go to visit a 78-year-old friend who is in the Acute Medical Unit with pneumonia.  He is on oxygen but able to talk.  There is an incessant beeping from his intravenous infusion which shows a high pressure alarm.  When I leave him I go to the ward desk and tell the nurse about this, and request that something is done about it.  ‘Yes’, she says, ‘But we’re just about to have report’.  Refraining from asking whether she has done the ‘Patients First’ module I leave the ward fuming.  ‘Report’ has been the bugbear of my life as a consultant.  Following the Salmon report many years ago into nursing practice, it was decreed that patient handover should be more formalised.  But in our hospitals nowadays, the poor continuity of staffing in many cases, and the very high turnover of patients, mean that many staff coming on for their shift have never met many of the patients now under their care.  In practice, this means that the entire nursing staff withdraw to an office for a long (sometimes up to an hour) handover, leaving patients to fend for themselves.  Handover used to happen when I was a house physician, but it was done by the bedside, the ward sister moving from bed to bed and briefing the next nurse to take charge.  It was not necessary for the entire ward staff to stop work and ‘have a meeting’ – the curse of the NHS.


Well, that is one hobby horse addressed.  Where next?  The England cricket team?  But some topics are beyond saving…


The war in Gaza is appalling.  Israel, by virtue of what seems to be very arbitrary bombardment in Gaza (civilian and children’s lives lost) would seem to be losing the propaganda war, despite the horrendous atrocities inflicted in the raid into Israel by HAMAS.  The BBC has stopped short of labelling HAMAS a terrorist organisation, using the phrase ‘Labelled as a terrorist organisation by UK Government and others’.  The new phase is on the ground incursion by Israeli military.  The unrest has spread, with Lebanese Hezbollah fighters now attacking Israel.  There is concern that Iran will now become more overtly (formerly secretly) involved.  The most worrying headline of the week has been that HAMAS representatives have been welcomed to Moscow by Putin.  A recent social media post revealed a telling quote from Mahatma Gandhi: ‘An eye for an eye leaves the whole world blind’ (the quote is probably by Gandhi’s biographer, Louis Fischer).

Maybe there will be some better news someday.

 

Saturday November 18th, 2023

A seemingly never ending sequence of storms has deluged much of the UK and caused significant disruption.  Parkstone Golf Club has measured rainfall from 1st October to 16th November at 350mm (14 inches).  Storm Ciarán (more in a moment) has been replaced by Storm Debi.  It hit this week and represents the earliest time in the storm season that we have reached the letter ‘D’ in the meteorological alphabet.  Such storms mean that swimming can be dangerous due to the overflow from an overloaded sewage system, and as usual, Matt has the 'mot juste'.



Matt, the Daily Telegraph


There is little to report in the way of light relief from the Middle East.  The phrase ‘In war, the first casualty is the truth’ has been attributed to Aeschylus.  He meant of course, the deceptions practised in the Ancient World by opposing armies and did not live to experience the rise of propaganda.  In the word strewn wars of the internet, claims and counter-claims on this phrase particularly push the claims of some U.S. Senator called Hiram something in originating the phrase.  One of these internet warriors, interestingly, tells us that Aeschylus lived from 456 BC to 524 BC, i.e. backwards.

The best recent example of propaganda or misinformation was an explosion in Gaza which HAMAS claimed was an Israeli missile strike on a hospital.  Israel counter-claimed that the explosion was due to a misfiring Palestinian missile which had landed not in the hospital but in the car park.  U.S. surveillance suggests that the latter is true, but we cannot be certain.  What is undoubted is that there are substantial civilian casualties in Gaza.  Now that the Israeli Defence Force has invaded it may be that warfare will be better directed against HAMAS fighters, though there are stories of their gunmen downing weapons, and stealing hospital clothing in order to escape the on the ground fighting.

Propaganda, is of course, as classicists will know, the neuter plural gerundive (or gerund) form of the verb propagare to spread or propagate.  Mention of gerunds reminds me inevitably of Nigel Molesworth and his struggles with most school subjects.  Molesworth thought that the Gerund was some sort of animal.  Here is Ronald Searle's illustration from the Molesworth books:




The original use of the word propaganda, as in Congregatio de Propaganda Fide was an attempt by the Vatican in 1622 to spread the Christian (Catholic) message.  As such its original use was neutral, i.e. a simple attempt to spread an ideology or a message.  Its later use, incorporating the sense of manipulation goes much further than ‘being economical with the truth’ and includes falsehoods to achieve an aim.  Its progeny would now include ‘Fake News’, ‘Misinformation’ and ‘Disinformation’.

Enough.  My step grandson (aged 6) came home from school the other day.  Indignation was painted across his face.  ‘Mummy, what do you think the school play is this Christmas?  Jesus again!  He has seceded from casting in this year’s event.  He is something of a character, and the headmaster has accepted this without demur.

On a mission to visit football grounds where AFC Bournemouth are the visiting team, my wife announced that we should go to Manchester to see the Etihad stadium.  I object to merely travelling there and back, so we have a mini-break,.

Day one was meant to be climbing Moel Famau, a hill on the northern section of the Offa’s Dyke path.  Storm Ciarán had other ideas, so we explored Chester in the rain.  A University graduation ceremony was taking place in the cathedral (ancient but remodelled by Sir Gilbert Scott 1868-75) and there was some fine organ music being played.  The bass notes caused even the massive stone pillars of the building to vibrate.

Moving on we debate how to spend the next day when the weather forecast is better.  From our hotel on the shores of the Irish Sea we walk into Prestatyn to discuss this and dine at the Crispy Cod (highly recommended).  Dessert courtesy of Tesco’s across the road.  The last of the big spenders.  Our meal the following evening in ‘Bryn Williams at Porth Eirias’ (a TV chef who is of course not there) costs four times as much and is ‘okay’.  The only chardonnay on the wine list by the glass is from Conway (North Wales) and is a little sharp…

Our Friday therefore begins with a trip taking our bicycles on the train to Bangor.  As we arrive, the heavens open and the charming (?Victorian) station is deluged with water as rain cascades into the (?Victorian) iron pipes which have probably not been cleared for years.  Huge gouts of water backflow at the bends of the pipes and the platform resembles a lake.  ‘Didn’t we have a luvverley time, the day we went to Bangor’ I carol.  A passenger standing nearby reminds me that the song is about Bangor, Northern Ireland, but I think he gets my drift.

We begin the first of 44 miles, saving grace being a backwind.  The cycle route is mostly excellent, National cycle route 5 (Sustrans), and lies largely along small roads and some remarkable cliff skirting bike paths.  Eventually we reach the Conway estuary, with the dark grey castle looming over the town and blending into the dark grey landscape.  It would be possible to glance at the town from the estuary and miss it, despite its immense size.  A quick pit stop and then on over the headland past Llandudno into the sweep of Colwyn Bay.  More persistent rain and we are soaked by the time we get back to The Beaches hotel.  A sense of achievement nonetheless, the longest bike ride for us on normal road bikes for a very long time.

'Didn't we have a luvverley time?'

OK

Looking East near Penmaenmawr
Conway Castle

The Smallest House, Conway


Saturday is our trip to watch the football.  A veil can be drawn over Bournemouth’s performance here.  But in the evening, staying with my cousin, a retired brewer, we have a pub meal and some excellent beer.


Armistice Day respect at Manchester City


Any readers will deduce that we have been short of excitement to write about recently and they would be right.  So, on to discuss ‘Book Club’.  After nearly five years in our all male book club we have read 40 books.  The most recent choice was ‘The Loved One’ by Evelyn Waugh (1948).  As a 17-year-old I loved the gallows humour and satire and probably missed a lot of the nuances.  I was surprised but pleased to enjoy it on re-reading.  I was struck by the pithy satire, e.g. at Sir Francis Hinsley’s house, the narrator states ‘English titles abounded now in Hollywood, some of them authentic.’  And some of it is prescient, for example, with regard to funeral services in America, ‘Liturgy in Hollywood is the concern of the stage rather than of the Clergy’.  One cannot help thinking of the elaborate pantomime of Michael Jackson’s funeral – broadcast worldwide.

Waugh comes up with names worthy of Dickens, ‘Mrs Leicester Scrunch, Mrs Theodora Heinkel, Mr Joyboy, Aimée Thanatogenos, Sophie Dalmeyer Krump’.  I noted a fair whiff of anti-Semitism.  I had to look up the slang when one character says of Hollywood directors: ‘Your five-to-two is a judge of quality’.  And I loved the definition of Hogmanay, ‘People being sick on the pavement in Glasgow’.  Waugh’s cruel sense of humour extended to mistreatment of his own family, in many well documented accounts.  ‘The nastiest tempered man in England’ was one description.  On the other hand, no less a critic than Clive James wrote: ‘Nobody ever wrote a more unaffectedly elegant English…’

At our discussion of the novel, it scored highly.  On to my own choice of book!


I had in mind to choose Brecht’s ‘The Threepenny Novel’, which again I read as a teenager, and after recently being dazzled by the Edinburgh Festival’s ‘Threepenny Opera’.  But I was dining with several cardiological friends, and we talked of book clubs.  ‘There is a book club’, announced a friend, ‘Based, I think, in Moscow, where they only ever discuss one book.’  Immediately thinking of how much time we could save, not to mention cost in ordering our books, I was immediately intrigued.  The book turned out to be ‘The Master and Margarita’ by Mikhail Bulgakov.  Written under threat of Soviet repression and censorship in the 1930s, it eventually surfaced after the Second World War in samizdat copies in Russia, but these were incomplete and portions were suppressed or redacted.  The full novel appeared only in the 1970s, by which time Bulgakov had been dead for many years.  I obtained a copy and read it in three days (it runs to 450 plus pages).  I urge you to read it – I would describe it as extraordinary.  But I would also accept that it is a little like Marmite – some may not like it at all, particularly as it predates and presages much 20th Century Magical Realism.  I have worked hard to provide my club members with a list of characters – Russian names: given name, patronymic, family name, together with nicknames or shortened and diminutive forms are always a source of difficulty.  This is available to anybody who would like it!


And on Wednesday November 15th, the only day recently with good weather, the walking group toured the New Forest trails around Lyndhurst and Rhinefield.  Oblique sunshine glinting through golden leaves made us all feel better about life.  Fording some of the streams was difficult but we repaired to The Oak Inn at Bank afterwards for good beer and food.  As we approached a tiny hamlet, we were met by a family of pigs foraging for acorns – an ancient right in the New Forest protected in law as ‘pannage’.


New Forest, November 15th

'Your tiny streams are swollen'

Porky 'pannage'



And during another rainy day of Lindsay’s absence when I gained unrestricted access to the kitchen, I attempted to recreate a wonderful Breton pastry which we have enjoyed while cycling in France – the Kouign-Amann (Breton for ‘Butter Cake’).  Here is the result:

Kouign-Amann


In my personal opinion, ingestion of one of these could substitute for a GTT (glucose tolerance test) - if anyone does those any more.

I sent the picture to our friend Maggie who was a contestant on ‘The Great British Bake-Off’ two seasons ago.  She came straight round.  ‘The important thing is that you gave it a go’, she said.  A delightful double-edged compliment.

And I expect the next diary entry will be for Christmas…

Saturday, October 7, 2023

Evening Hill Diary - from Midsummer to Autumn 2023

 

Mid-August 2023


The head of the British Museum has resigned.  It has been pointed out that many items have been stolen – probably by staff – and have appeared on retailing websites, and nothing has been done.  As usual, the cartoonist Matt sums it up well.



The weather remains disappointing but reasonably warm.  The news, at least the national news, remains dispiriting.  Sadiq Khan, London mayor, firmly intends to bring in his ULEZ (Ultra Low Emission Zone) expansion from 29th August.  His figures for death related to pollution are disputed by many, and the legislation will hit poorer people who own older cars more than richer people (have you noticed that the only people who drive electric cars are wealthy?).  Planned rail strikes will force many to drive (including ourselves – we were planning to catch the train to London and then cycle to the Brentford vs Bournemouth match in a week’s time).  Traffic calming measures – speed humps and chicanes actually increase fuel consumption and thus pollution.  Oh dear.  We have also had more doctors’ strikes, including consultants.  The press points to the high salaries which consultants earn.  An antipathetic strategy.

One lovely day – a Sunday – and we introduce some Swiss friends to a section of the Dorset coast which they have not seen before.  They are keen walkers and have been steadily devouring the Southwest Coast Path for some time.  Being Swiss, they had been perplexed to find that it was not possible (on a weekday) to walk from Kimmeridge to Lulworth).  Of course, the reason is that the British play war games during the week and the coast is off limits.  Starting from Whiteways car park on the Purbeck ridge, we walk along Flowers Barrow, almost to Arish Mell, the tiny beach in the midst of the Lulworth Army Reserve, and then back around the coast to Worbarrow.  A visit to Tyneham (the little village commandeered by the Army in about 1943) also engenders Swiss interest, and perhaps puzzlement.


The Dorset coast, looking towards the 'Isle of Portland'


18th August

Fly to Edinburgh for my usual delve into the Good, the Bad, and the Ugly which is the Edinburgh Festival and its ‘Fringe’.  My friend G….., from medical school, who lives in Edinburgh, and I, have been exploring this for well over 40 years.  I have to have an excuse to go these days – the Fringe is too unpredictable, though there is always a good exhibition on at the Royal Scottish Academy.  When looking through the main Festival programme, early in the year, two things caught my eye.  One, the Threepenny Opera by Bertolt Brecht/Elisabeth Hauptmann/Kurt Weill, to be performed by the Berliner Ensemble (Brecht’s original company).  Two, the Alvin Ailey American Dance Theater, a (mostly) black ballet company I saw in North Carolina in the early 1980s.  For many years, some of the great American dance companies were unable to tour Britain because they used recorded music.  Equity (or was it the Musicians’ Union?) would not allow it.  Obviously, the current troupe would not have been born the last time I saw the company (!) but it seemed too good an opportunity to miss.

But Edinburgh is a wonderful place...

Edinburgh castle from the west end of Princes Street

Edinburgh castle at night

Art everywhere - an Anthony Gormley stands in the Water of Leith


My friend’s husband is happy playing his bagpipes (last appearance on the Fringe in the wittily named ‘Game of Drones’) or practising Scottish fiddle music, and rarely accompanies us.  In the mornings, over breakfast, we study The Scotsman review pages and ring immediately to book anything that sounds good.




Some of the shows appeal by virtue of their names.

For example, ‘First piano on the moon’, ‘Ay Up Hitler!’ (which apparently is based on the assertion that Hitler escaped to Yorkshire), and the intriguing but coarse, ‘Why I stuck a flare up my arse for England’ (something to do with football).



Edinburgh is always full of ghosts for me.  Ghosts of my earlier self, ghosts of my friends who studied there in the late 1960s while I was living in Argyllshire, and ghosts of relatives.  My father was apparently born there in 1918, possibly because his father was in uniform (the family came from Helmsdale, however, in the far north east).  My mother’s cousins both studied there, one medicine, one veterinary science.  It is with a curious sense of retracement that we walk from the mound via the writers’ museum to Summerhall.  This is a fringe venue, and it is in the old Veterinary School, known as The Royal Dick.  Capable of misinterpretation, it is actually named after William Dick, originally a farrier from Cannongate, who began veterinary education in Edinburgh in the early 19th Century, and his school received the Royal Assent and title in 1906.  The old anatomy lab is now a reasonable bar, surrounded by glass cases with historic items of laboratory ware and high up on the walls, an assortment of animal skulls.  Hunker down for a coffee.

Into the ‘First Piano on the Moon’.  Will Pickvance, an acrobatic and brilliant pianist, essentially a show for children from 5 to 95.  Great entertainment as Will does badly at school, but then gets an invitation to play at Mozart’s birthday party in Salzburg.

The afternoon, or most of it, is spent in G’s Scottish Arts Club, a venerable institution in an old building in Rutland Square.

It seems unlikely that the American protagonist will read this (fortunately), but G, as senior member present, has the job of introducing ‘Scottish Voices’, a group of excellent singers, whose job it is to sing some modern renderings of mainly Scottish, and predominantly Gaelic poetry, to piano parts composed by somewhat minimalist composers.  One of these is a Bostonian woman who has wangled a Fulbright scholarship (no doubt all expenses paid) to live and work in Edinburgh and to compose tunes (I use the word in its widest sense) to which the poetry can be sung.

After some passable works by Hamish McCunn we are onto the Gaelic songs (typical example ‘Elegy for George Floyd’ – or ‘Cumha Sheòrais Floyd’), and eventually the major work ‘Mac-Talla’ or ‘Echo’ introduced by the earnest Bostonian.  Unfortunately it seems that the work was curtailed when the designated Hebridean poet, Aonghas MacNeacail (Angus McNicoll to you and me), died.  G leans over to me and suggests sotto voce that he was fed up with being plagued by the earnest Bostonian for more poetry.

All things, good or otherwise, come to an end, and we meander to Fountainbridge for a reasonable pub meal before heading up to the Edinburgh Festival Theatre for the main event, the Berliner Ensemble version of The Threepenny Opera.

What a bleak play.  Exciting, engrossing, and an outstanding performance by Gabriel Schneider, a charismatic Mackie Messer (aka Macheath).  Great music from the Weimar era played by a superb 7-piece band.  The main characters are self-interested and devious.  Great acting from Kathrin Wehlisch as ‘Tiger’ Brown, the corrupt Chief of Police who is Macheath’s friend from their time in the army.  She played the role as a puppet like Charlie Chaplin figure (whom Brecht was known to admire).  The most sympathetic figures are all female, undone by male duplicity.  A powerful evening.

It would be dull to detail all of the other plays that we saw.  Highlights were a Dutch group of revue multi-instrumental musicians in ‘Slapstick Scherzo’ (see them if you can, anywhere they perform), and a curious play, hard to describe, using entirely cardboard props, graffiti covered, all in mime, called ‘The Ice Hole’ – see it if you can.  We saw talented young performers – will they make it in the big bad world of theatre, music, and drama?  Who knows.



Alvin Ailey American Dance Theater was a final highlight.  Thank heavens the Equity ban has somehow been circumvented.   A joyous finale.  To see staid Edinburgh burghers on their feet clapping and dancing at the final encore was remarkable.

Best exhibition – undoubtedly the gamut of Grayson Perry’s works at the Royal Scottish Academy.  Not to be attended if easily offended, or if you might take exception to Grayson’s concept that his favourite teddy bear, Alan Measles, is really God.  There is a free App called ‘Smartify’ which gives an audioguide narrated by Grayson – worth listening to – I think it is still available.


A modern 'Rake's Progress - Grayson Perry

A Grayson Perry pot - note Alan Measles



Back in Poole, Lindsay has had a great time walking with friends in Switzerland, temperature in the 30s, and eventually this freak weather arrives with us, with September temperatures now over 30 degrees in the U.K.  This makes morning swims in the sea very pleasant.

Saturday September 2nd

To London, to watch Brentford play AFC Bournemouth.  We intended to go by train, but there was a train strike, so we had to drive with our bicycles to Kingston, incurring Mr Khan’s ULEZ charge.  We reached the stadium via the Thames path.  As we leave, curious Bournemouth supporters enquire how early we left this morning to cycle to Brentford.  Final score 2-2.

 

Richmond Park, London, September 2nd

September 7th

A hot and rather humid day again.  Oncology appointment today and PSA is undetectable (good news), though this is expected with anti-androgen therapy, and it is not until this is eventually withdrawn that one might anticipate any tumour activity to reveal itself in PSA elevation.

I visited a colleague with metastatic cholangiocarcinoma today, residing in a hospice for pain control and management of hypercalcaemia.  We lament that doctors are not as shrewd as we were – not entirely unreasonably, since she had to diagnose her own lower segment venous thrombosis herself.  She also had chemotherapy induced angina due to coronary artery spasm which she diagnosed herself.

Doctors do not seem to listen properly to patients these days.  I saw an acquaintance last week (aged 65; ex-smoker) who has been from pillar to post (well, from GP to A&E to specialist advisers) with three months of ‘unexplained’ symptoms.  Perhaps it didn’t help that she first attended the GP and told him she was convinced she had gastric cancer.  Her symptoms began in June – sudden onset of bilateral jaw ache after a heavy meal, radiating down the front of her chest, lasting about 5 minutes, and sometimes accompanied by sweatiness.  Interestingly, rarely brought on by exercise – but then she doesn’t exercise much.  Now frightened to have anything more than a bowl of soup in case the symptoms come on again.  Diagnosis – prior to my seeing her - everything from costochondritis to gastritis to pulmonary embolism, even after attendance at the E.R.  She had been treated with anti-inflammatories and then antacids and acid suppressants.  The obvious diagnosis: angina pectoris (pain from coronary artery narrowing), had not been thought of.  Result of conversation: a phone call to a colleague who arranged a CT coronary angiogram which showed a critical right coronary artery narrowing.  She is on the correct treatment and is scheduled for stent insertion (now done).  In the 19th century, the great physician Sir William Osler said, ‘Listen to the patient for he (she) is telling you the diagnosis’.  I think the problem with doctors today is threefold: Firstly, lack of continuity in care.  Secondly, lack of time to sit and listen to patients resulting in snap diagnoses which are often wrong.  Thirdly, lack of the hundreds of hours a month of clinical experience which we had as juniors, together with a reluctance to actually examine patients to save precious time.

In case the reader feels I am getting too big for my own boots, here is a story against myself from 50 years ago, during my time as a junior doctor.  Some names have been changed:

“On one memorable evening, which I can remember as if it were yesterday, I admitted a pleasant, slightly cadaverous looking man in his 50s with breathlessness.  It was my first and possibly best lesson in how to get things wrong, and how to jump to conclusions.  The superb physician, Maurice Pappworth, called these Procrustean Crimes, and it’s well worth retailing this for the education of others.  Procrustes was an Athenian robber, who with his wife, lured travellers to his house on the pretence of hospitality.  Once in bed he would tie them up and if they were shorter than the bed stretch them to fit, or if longer than the bed, lop their limbs off to fit.  Either way they wound up dead and robbed.  So, according to Pappworth, a Procrustean Crime is stretching the diagnosis to fit the history, or the facts, ignoring details which may make the diagnosis untenable.

 

In this case, poor Mr Durand, for that was his name, had obviously lost weight.  He was breathless.  He had coughed up some blood.  He was a cigarette smoker.  Over the heart there was a clear cut murmur heard through the stethoscope, which was clearly audible in systole (contraction) and diastole (relaxation) of the heartbeat.  I surmised that this noise was a pericardial rub (inflammation of the sac around the heart).  On the chest X-ray was a large white mass, close to the heart.  It was the smoking and the haemoptysis that made me diagnose lung cancer.  It seemed very straightforward.  Weight loss – another sure sign.  A pericardial rub – due to tumour infiltration of the heart.

 

It was Mike Creech, my registrar, of course, who suspected otherwise.  He looked at the X-ray with me, and at the mass in the centre of the chest.  He mused ‘I wonder if that shadow is the aorta – but if so it is hugely enlarged.’  We went to talk to the patient.  ‘Tell me about the breathlessness,’ said Mike.

 

‘Well’, said the patient.  ‘I’ve been getting breathless for a while, but it seems to be at night that I get most of the trouble.’

‘Tell me how.’  Said Mike.

‘Well, I can get off to sleep alright, but then I wake up at about two or three in the morning, and I’m fighting for breath, especially if I’ve slipped down off the pillows.’

‘And what do you do?’

‘Well, first of all, it feels as though the room is terribly stuffy and I can’t get enough air.  I sit on the edge of the bed and dangle my legs over the edge, and after a little while I begin to feel a bit better.’

‘And do you do anything else?’

‘Yes, that’s the funny thing doctor, I walk over to the window and throw it open, and I stand there and take deep breaths.  That makes me feel a lot better.  When I go back to bed I find I can usually go back to sleep, but I have taken to using four or five pillows to prop myself up.’

 

Mr Durand had just given a perfect textbook description of heart failure, and the pulmonary oedema that comes on when fluid returns to the circulation at night, especially in the recumbent position.  I remembered that the distension of small blood vessels in the lungs can give blood tinged sputum.  Mike listened to the heart and said that he suspected that the almost continuous heart murmur, my interpretation of which was a pericardial ‘rub’ was in fact the to-and-fro murmur of severe aortic regurgitation.  A dose of diuretic was given and the patient slept comfortably.  The diagnosis was confirmed by Dr Hollman the next morning.  He told us that he suspected Mr Durand had Marfan syndrome, or at least a forme fruste of the condition where the aorta becomes dilated but the other skeletal features of the condition are not obvious.  My Procrustean crime had been to assume that a cadaverous looking smoker was suffering from lung cancer – i.e. a prejudice.  I had fairly recently given up smoking myself and was, and to some extent still am, Messianic about stopping people smoking.  Then I went on to make the signs that I observed fit in with my prejudgement of the case.  This is not to say that I never made a Procrustean mistake again – but is an illustration of one of my most dramatic failures.

 

Mr Durand went to the National Heart Hospital and underwent surgery by John Parker, whom I later came to know quite well.  The aortic valve was successfully replaced and the ascending aorta was replaced with a sleeve of Dacron.  He did well, but a few weeks later he collapsed and sadly died, probably from a tear at the distal anastomosis (join to the aorta) or a fresh rupture of the dilated descending aorta which couldn’t be replaced.  His wife came in to thank us for our efforts.  I said that I was so sorry we hadn’t been able to save him.  She shook her head.  ‘No, the illness and problems that he had are over and gone.  His problems are over.  Mine are just beginning.  I have to find what to do with the rest of my life.’  So many times after this have I heard similar sentiments.  ‘His sufferings are at an end.  Mine are just beginning.’”

 

 

September 8th

One year since the Queen died, and one year since my grandson Arlo was born.

To Dorchester Museum for the one concert that we are able to attend in the Purbeck International Chamber Music Festival.  A step up from its original name which did not include the word International.  Natalie Clein’s collaborators and friends are so wide ranging that its new title is appropriate, with professors of music from many countries taking part.  The highlight (for me at least) is the wonderful Schubert quintet in C major, composed in 1828, just two months before his death, and unheard for another 22 years.  Natalie plays a 1777 Guadagnini cello (‘The Simpson’), and the other musicians are the Danel quartet, all virtuosi in their own right.  55 minutes of sublime music.


Natalie Clein and the Danel Quartet


September 9th

Arlo’s first birthday party.  As usual, these affairs are more for the adults than the recipient.  His parents (both keen cyclists) are delighted with his present of a balance bike, even more overjoyed than Arlo himself who doesn’t know what to do with it.  Some Duplo (train set) appeals more.  It is easier to put it in your mouth.

Bubbles


September 11th

For some time we have thought that it might be fun to cycle around Lake Constance (Bodensee).  The cycle route is apparently very good and often traffic free.  There are many firms which offer this holiday, we chose a German one based in Konstanz – Radweg Reisen.  As an experiment we decided to hire electric bikes.

It’s an easy hop to Zürich and a train goes directly from the airport northeast to Konstanz.  It is something of a change to roll along through rural Switzerland (the Canton of Thurgau) without mountains.  Arable farming is the main occupation, and particularly fruit and vegetables.  An occasional red kite or buzzard whirls over the farmland, and in one open field, apparently gleaning after the corn is cut, there are several storks.

Konstanz is officially in Germany, though no passport problems and we settle in to the Hotel Halm, opposite the bahnhof.  A long walk takes us to the northern section of the city where Radweg Reisen are checking over our bikes.  It is a much easier journey back.  The bikes, made by German company Velo de Ville, are very heavy and rugged, but with a small amount of power selected the riding is easy.  The settings – Eco, Tour, Sport, Turbo – give some indication of the resources one can summon up at the press of a switch (I know this is not news to aficionados).  Dinner by the lake on a beautiful late summer’s evening.

September 12th

Our first ride is westwards along the small finger of the lake (Untersee) which leads directly to the Rhine, which is crossed at Stein am Rhein.  The boundaries of Switzerland and Germany are a little confusing.  Switzerland has both sides of the Rhine here.  Stein am Rhein is heaving with tourists.  It is said to be the best preserved mediaeval town in Switzerland, with its complement of original or restored buildings, an impressive gatehouse and tower, and many beautiful wall paintings on the houses.  It looks like something out of Harry Potter, perhaps Diagon Alley, or Hogsmeade.


Stein am Rhein


Diagon Alley


Here, the electric bikes display their advantages.  There is a beautiful old covered trestle bridge across the Rhine, some 10 km downstream – a detour – but it doesn’t seem to be a hardship.  Gailingen, where the bridge is situated, has, as many towns or villages on the lake and river do, an area called the Strandbad.  This is a riverside or lakeside public park, always beautifully maintained, where one can picnic, sunbathe, and swim.  There are many locals floating down the Rhine on their ‘noodles’, and presumably they get out somewhere and walk back.  The river current looks quite fierce.

Gailingen trestle bridge over the Rhine


I won’t dwell on all the minutiae of our holiday except for a few curious and interesting highlights.  The next morning, we stop in the neighbouring village, Hemmenhofen, and visit the house of the artist, Otto Dix.  I have wanted to learn more about Otto Dix because his early (Weimar) paintings capture beautifully the contrasts of rich and poor in 1920s Germany.  His triptych, Metropolis (Die Grossstadt), painted in 1928 is a good example, contrasting Cabaret like scenes in the centre panels with the grotesque images of the down and outs seen in Germany after the first World War.  Surely the producer and director of the film Cabaret, must have had his figures in mind when devising the setting for the Kit Kat Club?

All I knew about the painter before going to his house was that Hitler had a great antipathy for his work, his paintings being selected for the infamous Entartete Kunst (Degenerate Art) exhibition held in Munich in 1937.  But he had been dismissed by the Nazis from his Professorship post in Dresden some years before.  In 1936 therefore, mindful that he might need to escape Germany, he and his wife built the house which overlooks Lake Constance, and is only a mile or two from the Swiss border.  The photogravure reproductions of his paintings are present in every room, and the experience is enhanced by an audioguide in which his son, Jan, talks about their life together as a family in Hemmenhofen.  It seems that most of his great works are in the Art Gallery in Stuttgart.  Dix lived here until his death in 1969.

Die Grossstadt, Otto Dix


This painting by Otto Dix sits in the Museum of Uncertain Provenance, above the Zeppelin museum.  It belonged to a family named Strauss and was almost certainly purloined by the Nazis.  Research to find the possible descendants of the owners is ongoing.


The northern rim of the lake is in Germany, mostly in Baden-Württemberg, and it seems like Germany’s ‘Gold Coast’.  Beautiful villas and apartments rim the lakeside.  Inland we cycle past hundreds of apple orchards, and find it strange that we never seem to see German apples in our shops.  There are many vineyards as well.





Friedrichshafen is a must see for aviation (or dirigible) enthusiasts.  It houses the Zeppelin museum.  Count Zeppelin launched his first airship in Friedrichshafen (LZ1) in 1900 for a 20-minute flight over Lake Constance.  Lindsay and I get two reductions in the entry fee.  One for being senioren and a further reduction for having travelled there by bike.  It is very popular, with Germans as well as other tourists, though there is no irony for them, it seems, in looking at German military top brass quaffing champagne in the Graf Zeppelin and the Hindenburg in the 1930s.  Another happy snap catches Ferdinand Porsche and friends trying out a new tank destined for the German army in 1943.

Aeroplane food isn't like this any more - items from the Zeppelins


Further on we stay on the island in the lake which is part of Lindau, and then cycle through the very small part of Austria which borders the lake, namely the City of Bregenz, capital of the Vorarlberg.  We are too late for the famous Bregenz opera festival, held on the seebühne (sea stage).  There is a cable car in the city which whisks you up the Pfänder mountain, to a height of 1064m.  This is well worth the trip, and there is a variety of bicycle routes down from the top which are very straightforward.  In the sunshine at the top of the lift it seems strange to look at the mountains to the east, for example the Valluga above St Anton, only 40 km away.

Crossing the Rhine again takes us into Switzerland, and our last night on the route is spent in Arbon, which was important as the site where the Irish monk, St Gallus, set up his ministry.  We ponder how St Gallus managed to travel there…  He then moved a short distance away to found the monastery of St Gallen.



Pfander cable car above the lake at Bregenz


Not a blot on the landscape.  Henry Moore outside the Wurth gallery in Rorschach


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Sunset on the Untersee



The dog days of September back in Poole are interrupted by weather systems from the Atlantic.  At one moment sitting to eat lunch outside, at another driven in by thunderstorms and torrential rain.

It’s hard to know what to make of politics at the moment.  Rumours that HS2 (a high speed rail network from London to the north, now billions over budget) will be watered down or even abandoned.  Nervous politicians because we are now entering the party conference season.  All with an eye on a General Election, a little more than a year away.

And Donald Trump, ever popular with Republicans, has been indicted on numerous charges, the clearest of which seems to have been that his assets were falsely inflated to gain loans at reduced rates.



The news has been dominated by BBC fixations.  One day it is a prisoner at Wandsworth prison who has escaped by holding on to the underside of a kitchen delivery lorry; on another day it is King Charles speaking execrable French but seemingly going down a storm in Versailles; or a British made missile in use in Ukraine; or more doctors’ strikes and the cancellation of hospital appointments.

While we were away, the Vuelta a Espana ended with a popular win for the American rider, Sepp Kuss.  His team, Jumbo-Visma, have won all three grand tours this year with three different winners.

But more sport, the Solheim Cup (golf) has just ended with jubilation for the Europe team in retaining the cup, but surely this should be tempered with the result that the final score was Europe 14 - U.S.A. 14?  And the rugby world cup now features.  A titanic match between Ireland and South Africa ends with a narrow win for Ireland.  Wales thrash Australia 40 points to 6.

October 1st, 2023

Very mild though overcast.  September temperatures have been much above average and October continues this.  Swim in the sea where the temperature is holding up, websites suggesting that it is still 18 degrees C which is remarkably high.

The last three days have been punctuated by many hours of adherence to the TV showing the Ryder Cup, held at golf course Marco Simone, outside Rome.  Europe get off to a storming start and although America come back strongly, the final day sees honours even in the singles competition but Europe had done enough to win by a margin of 5 points, 16½ to 11½.  Much breast beating to come from the U.S.A. golf pundits.  In two years’ time we are in Long Island at Bethpage Black, and U.S. revenge is strong possibility.

 

Something to dwell on in the next edition of the blog – chatting with my Edinburgh friend, and the changes in things that preoccupy us, compared with when we were medical students.  Looking back on 50 years since we qualified as doctors.  As a trailer for our musings, here is something that came to me recently:

In the 1960s, when we imagined ourselves adult and mature, incorrect on both counts, I watched a black and white TV programme, a 1966 play of the sort that the BBC do not make or show these days.  It was called ‘The Snow Ball’ and was based on a 1964 novel by Brigid Brophy, which has re-emerged (reissued recently) as a cult classic.

The play starred Patrick Allen (an acting hero of mine), who played the main character, at a New Year’s Eve masked ball, where he was impersonating Don Giovanni.  An encounter with a masked woman dressed as Donna Anna resulted in a tantalising and sexually charged conversation, but as I recall we don’t discover what the outcome is (though the implications are obvious).  The most charged dialogue that I remember is that these two characters ask one another, ‘What do you think about?’  In my memory of the scene, Patrick Allen asked Donna Anna this question.  She replied, ‘Mozart, and sex.  What do you think about?’  The reply was, ‘Mozart (pause), sex (pause), and death.’  According to current reviews of the novel, I have this the wrong way round, and the first reply is that of Don Giovanni.

Later in the night a young couple have their first sexual experience in the back of a Bentley, during a snowstorm (yes, perhaps wishful thinking played a part in my juvenile appreciation of the drama).

All this seemed extraordinarily sophisticated to an 18-year old.  But then I read the novel and found it extremely pretentious.  After the reissue of the novel recently, and reading the adulatory reviews, I seem to be in a minority of one…

 

Our musings?  We were eating in a reasonable Italian restaurant in the heart of Edinburgh.  G said to me, ‘You know, when we were students, all we ever thought about was sex.  But now my food and this menu in front of me seems much more important.’  A remarkable frank confession, but then G does not pull punches when describing some of our erstwhile colleagues, for example: ‘Very consultoid and dreadfully dull.’  Or another, ‘She was very bright, married X’s (Surgeon’s) son who only did medicine to please his bullying father.  He subsequently did history and became an expert on the Battle of Trafalgar.’  Again, ‘… dull and boring; looked like a stooped old man, even as a student.’  And finally, ‘Original Hooray Henry, didn’t like his posh overbearing manner when I was a student, but then found I rather liked him and we did ‘share a moment’’.  I presume the latter to be a euphemism.

I suppose as students we did find time for other things, art, culture, music – and packing away an enormous amount of medical knowledge and experience, with its attending humour and pathos, in a short time.

 

So now we move into Autumn, perhaps literally and metaphorically, and yes, I do enjoy looking at a good menu.