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Monday, January 2, 2023

The Year 2022

A symbol of beauty -a remarkable selection of hellebores grown by friends decorate the dinner table in Hampreston.  But there was little else beautiful about the year 2022.



March 2022.  The two-year anniversary of the imposition of the first UK lockdown.  But this was overshadowed by the events of February when we woke to the news of the unprovoked invasion of Ukraine by Russia.  Hungary 1956 and Czechoslovakia 1968 were just two examples of the paranoid belligerence of the 100-year-old Soviet or Russian republic, and now the 21st Century is not immune to the same disease.

Also in March, I decided that the Corona Diary, published up until then as ‘The Doctor’s Diary’ was no longer a diary about Covid-19 and our response to it.  It became a diary about the war and our reaction to this.  Each new atrocity however, was an addition of repugnance to what had gone before – and sadly it became repetitive.  So I now have little to say that has not already been said.  A result of this has been that the diary (now renamed the Evening Hill Diaries) has become very desultory.

I discovered that there are innumerable doctors writing innumerable diaries, with my ‘Doctor’s Diary’ coming very low down on Google, so it might as well remain unread under its new title as under the old.

Here, mostly in pictures, is a personal perspective of 2022.


It is a truism that we cannot know what is to come.  Four chancellors, three prime ministers, two monarchs, a war in Europe and multiple strike actions as a result of large increases in the cost of living and interest rates together with a plunging pound were probably not foreseen on January 1st, 2022.


Sometimes it felt like this:


Matt.  Cartoonist.  Daily Telegraph.


The year started with vigorous vaccination programmes, in which I was a contributor, though to a far less extent than many of my retired colleagues.  Covid-19 seemed to be on the run and some return to normality was anticipated.

In early January, deputed to lead a walking group, I decided that the gravel paths of Wareham Forest were ideal, and made a recce by mountain bike on a glorious cold frosty morning.

January.  Frost in Wareham Forest


February.  A distant view of Corfe Castle towards evening from the roof of a flat near Poole Quay.

The weather was so settled we even fished from a boat, and saw a classic 12-metre yacht in Brownsea Roads.


The weather was calm and settled for a while – flat calm on the sea almost out to Handfast Point and Old Harry rocks.


Four days later came a ferocious storm and only the most determined kite surfers were out in the harbour.



Three days later, Russia invaded Ukraine.  This changed the whole world, with worries that China might now feel encouraged to invade Taiwan (because of the initial lack of response by the West), and long term political and economic consequences for us all.  Fuel prices, and grain prices (Ukraine is the bread basket of Europe and beyond) soared.

18 days later, our Bournemouth Symphony Orchestra chief conductor, the Ukrainian Kirill Karabits, giving his first concert here in Poole since the invasion addressed a sombre audience in the Lighthouse.  ‘Since I was last here’, he said, ‘the World has definitely changed, and not for the better.’  Rather than play Ukrainian music, he decided to stay with the previously arranged programme which included as its final work, Sibelius' glorious 2nd Symphony, often seen as a symbol of resistance against Russian invasion.

Kirill Karabits on the podium, March 16th, 2022:



We have a Ukrainian flag, in a show of solidarity, as have many other public buildings.


A remote church in Dorset - at Winterborne Houghton

And a cottage in Winterborne Stickland


In keeping with the loss of general world tranquillity, in my microcosm, a urologist told me that an MRI scan of the prostate was ‘suspicious’ and that I needed to come into hospital.  This was delayed after I caught Covid – having escaped it for 2 years.

Almost everybody now has a picture like this


I was in hospital for prostate biopsy on March 22nd.


With some misgivings, I attended a reunion at my college in Cambridge.  No wonder I look so old and sombre – meeting fellow undergraduates from over 50 years ago was an interesting but chastening experience.  I suspect the college wanted us back to consider legacies before it was too late.  The weather was fine when I arrived.  I went to a David Hockney exhibition at the Fitzwilliam.  In a cold early misty morning next day I tramped the once familiar streets.

Not the happiest of portraits...

A striking Hockney image

A timeless image.  Punting on the Cam in the foreground (river hidden).  King's College Chapel, dating from 1441 and the 18th Century symmetry of the Gibbs' Building

The next day.  Early misty morning, the beautiful wrought iron gates of Trinity College

Mist on the Cam.  The 'Mathematical' bridge; Queens' College.  Note the position of the apostrophe.

April.  The result of West Dorset walks.  Wild garlic soup - and a potful, awaiting further cooking

Despite now knowing I had cancer, things took a turn for the better in April, with walks in West Dorset, gathering of wild garlic, and a lovely two days of walking from Laugharne in West Wales.  It allowed me to take in all the Dylan Thomas experiences I had long wanted to do.  To see the estuary where Thomas watched the herons while looking over towards Sir John’s Hill was a wonderful experience in wonderful weather.  ‘…Slowly the fishing holy stalking heron in the river Towy below bows his tilted headstone.’  Curiously, and in keeping with how the world climate has changed, as I walked down through the woods on Sir John’s Hill, I came across a nest of egrets, not a heronry.

Laugharne Castle, Carmarthenshire

The Boathouse, the estuary, and in the distance, Sir John's Hill
'Over Sir John's Hill, the hawk on fire hangs still...'

Kidwelly Castle, another of the remarkable fortresses in this part of Wales.  Defended by the Princess Gwenllian in battle in the Great Revolt, 1136.  She was captured by the Norman invaders and beheaded.  A true Welsh heroine.


Swimming began in April, but the dips were brief

Following a discussion with the surgeon and an interview with a London professor of oncology, I was allowed to cycle in France, to attend my daughter’s wedding, and to take a much needed holiday in Italy before submitting to the surgeon’s knife.  This was just as well because recovery from robotic assisted radical prostatectomy is not a pleasant experience, and occupied most of the rest of the summer and beyond.  Lindsay underwent a right total knee replacement on August 8th, so she too was a sofa-confined sport spectator.  Apart from strenuous rehabilitation efforts on a stationary bicycle.

Charity Concert, 7th May, East Morden church
The a capella singing group - The Close Shaves



Cycling France, Langeais, Loire

Vineyards near Bergerac

Anna & Graham's Wedding

31st May - the water was getting warmer.  More smiles visible

June.  Italian heatwave.  Relaxing in Montefalco, Umbria


The beautiful frescoes of Assisi and Spoleto

Arena di Verona - a quick return trip to Italy to see Aida and play a bit of golf

Golf at the Villa D'Este Course - or at least, afterwards

Was this the greatest moment of sportsmanship ever?  Tour de France, Jonas Vingegaard and Tadej Pogacar.

Tour de France.  21st July.  The leader, Jonas Vingegaard, waits for his rival Tadej Pogacar, who had crashed during his attempt to gain time.



We celebrated Swiss National Day, August 1st, with Oleksandra, a refugee from Ukraine



After June 29th, my world changed.  In convalescence I was grateful to be able to swim in the sea almost every day, but histology showing lymph node invasion left me in somewhat of a limbo while awaiting regular 2 monthly PSA checks.  There is a dearth of pictures from the year thereafter, though the birth of my first grandson on September 8th, the date of Her Majesty Queen Elizabeth the Second’s death, was poignant.  In some ways it was reassuring – a continuing cycle of life.  We managed a five day trip to Istanbul in October, and less spectacularly, a visit to Elland Road to watch Bournemouth lose against Leeds (4-3; after leading 3-1).  Excellent sport continued in December with England’s sparkling form at cricket against Pakistan.  Early morning cricket in the sunshine dispelled the winter gloom.


September.  Marina visited from Switzerland in September, and we returned to Plumber Manor, only 44 years after her last visit there.  The cast was the same.


October brought variable weather after a good summer.  But in Istanbul it was pleasant.

Late October.  Night scene - Agia Sophia, Istanbul



The Blue Mosque (Sultanahmet)




An October sunset, Whitley Bay, Poole Harbour


After tranquillity, the Autumn storms returned.


Good kite jumping weather, 1st November





5th November.  Leeds.  Remember, remember - Billy Brember

And quiet flows the Don.  With Don Revie at Leeds.

A great and friendly atmosphere at Elland Road - but Bournemouth managed to lose



The year, at least as far as the weather was concerned, ended with a two-week cold snap before mild weather incursions brought rain again.

Occasional golf was possible.  It was lovely to see the oblique winter light, while forgetting the quality of the golf.

November 29th, 7th Green, Parkstone Golf Club

And then the cold snap.


An iced up harbour, December 17th

 

And mild again, 16th tee Parkstone Golf Club, 21st December.  The harbour and Purbeck beyond.


Christmas brought news and greetings from many friends, and an e-mail from Tena Incontinence products thanking me for valued custom and wishing me a happy Christmas.  I hope not to be such a valued customer in 2023.

There is widespread disaffection, dissatisfaction, strikes of nurses, ambulance drivers, train drivers, postal workers.  It's a delicious irony that the teachers who wish to strike may not be able to because the postal strikes may disable or invalidate their postal ballot.


 And my other daughter Katie, became engaged to James.

December 27th, Poole


And we cannot comprehend or even guess what the turning of this next year may bring.


I leave you with a striking sculpture by Robert Indiana in the Yorkshire Sculpture Park, near Wakefield.

And the seasonal light show at Salisbury Cathedral, photographed by a young friend.


Love, by Robert Indiana


Salisbury Cathedral.  It must have seen most things in the last 800 years...


 
















Sunday, May 1, 2022

A War Diary - February 11th 2022 to April 30th

 

WAR DIARY 

 

March 18th - a beautiful arrangement of hellebores at a friend's dinner party - something we haven't been to for two years


Starting this new phase of the diary.  Previously called the ‘Corona Diary’.  February 11th 2022 is the exact two year anniversary of the designation of Covid-19 (SARS-CoV-2) as a pandemic by WHO.  Admissions to hospital are increasing in the UK because of the complete relaxation of restrictions, and because of the enhanced transmissibility of the Omicron variant.  Lindsay tells me that there is a ‘Deltacron’ variant, but I await further data.  An interesting post by a nurse on Facebook calls attention to the bizarre paradox that anti-vaxxers, on admission to hospital and ITU, are more than ready to be filled full of cocktails of modern drugs to treat their Covid, but, strangely, were not previously prepared to be vaccinated!  How Lewis Carroll is that?

 

‘Contrariwise’, continued Tweedledee, ‘If it was so, it might be; and if it were so, it would be; but as it isn’t, it ain’t.  That’s logic’.

 

So, I will leave Corona for the time being.  The war in Ukraine is on all our minds now.  The outrageous disinformation from Russia is truly mind-boggling.  I have noticed, and I feel the same too, that many friends cannot bear to switch on the news.  I confine myself to gathering in the bare daily facts.  It is hard to watch suffering.

 

Sunday March 13th

 

It is the middle of the night.  I play my guitar.  Vivaldi, Hoagy Carmichael, Pachelbel.  Strange bedfellows, though bedfellows is perhaps not the right word.  Easy arrangements you understand.  I’m no John Williams.  A friend visited on Friday.  She said that deranged sleep patterns are a feature of Covid.  Truth to tell I’ve sometimes had these episodes before.  Maybe it’s worse.  I woke up from a strange dream, with a headache.  Now waiting for the Solpadeine to work.  In the dream, two trees had come down.  I didn’t recognise the house; the neighbour was the same though.  Going through my mind was the following:

 

‘Time it was, and what a time it was

It was…

A time of innocence

A time of confidences…

 

Long ago, it must be,

I have a photograph.

Preserve your memories,

They’re all that’s left you…’

 

Strange, isn’t it?  Sitting on the music stool I cast my eyes left and downwards.  Standing by the record turntable, the Richard Avedon photograph of Simon and Garfunkel.  Bookends.  Strange…  As I have observed before, Paul Simon is a poet.  Equally deserving of the Nobel as Bob Dylan.  Nobel – dynamite.  It’s hard not to think about the War, or ‘Special Operation’, as Putin calls it for domestic consumption.

 

‘Vlad i mir

What are you doing here?’

 

First two lines of a song or poem by the author.  I can’t complete it just now…

 

In 1974, Mr Cool, I bought a pigskin jacket.  It cost £54.  A website tells me that this is worth about £800 nowadays!  I was in my second housejob (internship).  I worked so many hours I couldn’t spend my salary.  Then I left the jacket on the back of my chair in a pub in Old Basing.  I rushed back at lunchtime the next day.  Of course somebody had taken it.  Wonder whether somebody still wears it?  I was distraught.  The purpose of this story – this Tristram Shandyish story – is that once I summoned up the courage and mental effort to go out and buy an identical one, I felt better.  But the related purpose of this story is to tell of my collected poems of T S Eliot (the S for Stearns is put in there so that nobody can spell his name ‘Toilets’ backwards).  I loaned it to someone years ago.  It never returned.  The other day, a line from the ‘Four Quartets’ coming into my head, I determined to buy another copy.  Only just over three pounds, with free postage!  I felt better.  Shades of the pigskin jacket.  When it arrived it was in perfect condition, and proudly bears the stamp ‘Cork City Library’.  Why don’t they need their copy any more?  It must have been there for years – obviously not borrowed frequently.

 

Now, what was it that was running through my brain?  It is the suffering in Ukraine.

 

‘…human kind cannot bear very much reality’. (Burnt Norton)

 

This is why we switch off the news.

 

I don’t pretend to understand all of Eliot.  Ralph Fiennes, who has been giving stage readings recently of the Four Quartets said something very similar when I saw him interviewed about it.  But mostly I can see what Eliot’s getting at.  When he wrote this (1935) there was great interest in the concept of time.

 

  ‘Time present and time past are both perhaps contained in time future…’  

 

Alternative realities influenced J.B. Priestley (Time and the Conways; Dangerous Corner; I have been here before), and they were still influencing authors such as John Fowles, years later (The French Lieutenant’s Woman).  In the 1930s, Einstein must have seemed like the scientific celebrity equivalent to Stephen Hawking in our time… and after Einstein, nobody understood time.

 

But this is a long way from a War Diary.  Prevarication.

 

Monday March 14th

 

It is ‘pi’ day.  Only the Americans think of it this way because they write it 3.14 (Ï€ to 2 decimal places).

 

I cannot report anything new about the war.  A photograph taken the other day showed an injured heavily pregnant woman removed from a maternity hospital which had been bombed.  Reportedly, today, both she and the baby are dead.  I’ve been saddened too, to watch the little children, with their garish rucksacks, presumably containing clothing and everything that is precious to them, boarding buses to take them away to neutral countries.  Thinking about our little children, or grandchildren, with their rucksacks, is somehow even more upsetting than seeing the faces of these children.

 

Biden has publicly stated that any intervention by America would mean ‘World War Three’.  This plays into the hands of Putin, who has threatened, in a roundabout way, nuclear retaliation.  This seems unlikely – Putin would know that a nuclear attack, no matter where he was hiding, would be the end of him and his regime.  There is a strong mood of bitterness and frustration at our inaction in letters to the newspapers today:

 

‘We are standing on the sidelines watching Russia target civilians in Ukraine as its method for overrunning the country’.

 

‘Western leaders have fallen over themselves retreating from red lines (invading a sovereign state, attacking nuclear power plants, targeting civilians)…  All our leaders are doing now is postponing the inevitable – and while they dither Ukrainians die’.

 

Biden’s statement: ‘those words invite Mr Putin to invade other neighbours with no fear of reprisals, except for sanctions that don’t deter him.  It isn’t Mr Putin who is crackers.  It is us’.

 

‘Can’t someone smear something nasty on Mr Putin’s front-door knob’?

 

I mentioned Alexandra Hall Hall recently.  Although a very clear thinker, and hugely experienced as a diplomat, she is very clearly a European anti-Brexit person.  But she ignores the fact that, even if we were still in the EU, we would be dithering about Russia in just the same, or perhaps an even more disorganised way.  European federalism has completely failed to tackle the risk on our borders.  A huge and successful country like Ukraine, which is mostly Westward looking, should have been invited into the EU soon after the fall of the Soviet Republic.  Failure to do this has invited Russia to attempt to take it back.  And European Federalism is mostly about bureaucracy, red tape, and economic partnering – it has no firm military organisation.  What is more, for nations like Germany particularly, as well as richer nations such as ourselves, it has been about giving money to the poorer members, often for the most ridiculous projects.  Trump certainly had a point in his carping about NATO member states not paying their legitimate share of the defence budget.  I do wonder sometimes whether, if Reagan and Thatcher were still in their respective posts, Putin would have attempted his ‘Special Operation’.

 

 

Tuesday March 15th

 

Eventually got around to reading an interview with David Hare in the weekend review.  I presume it was done before the war (the New war).  For a left-leaning dramatist, I couldn’t resist a smile when I heard that he laments that Margaret Thatcher was not in charge during the pandemic.  As both a scientist and a politician she would have organised things better.  As he reflects, ‘She had competence; something noticeably lacking in the present incumbent.’

We have had our ‘Tiananmen Square’ moment.  A presenter on Russian TV suddenly appeared behind the newsreader with a ‘Stop the War’ message.  This brave girl is called Marina Ovsyannikova.  Like the man standing in front of the tanks in 1989, she is now missing.  (Note added 16th March; she is visible, and has been fined, but may ‘face further charges’).

 

Say what you like about President Kennedy (and many have), his speeches are remarkable in their quality, compared, let us say, to be even handed, to Joe Biden and Donald Trump.  Here is the text of his speech before the Canadian Parliament on May 17th, 1961, tragically and ironically, his first trip outside the U.S. as President.

 

https://millercenter.org/the-presidency/presidential-speeches/may-17-1961-address-canadian-parliament

 

I came across this because I was searching for the origin of the famous sentence:

‘The only thing necessary for the triumph of evil is for good men to do nothing’, erroneously it seems attributed to Edmund Burke.  Kennedy used it in this speech.

 

 

Wednesday, March 16th

 

A southerly wind bringing yellow or brown Saharan dust has covered the ski slopes of the Alps, and there are pictures of what they call ‘Saharstaub’ from Lenzerheide.  It seems to have reached here today, giving a very gloomy cast to the sky before heavy rain adds to the murk and puts an end to plans for golf today.

 

No change in Ukraine.  Bizarrely, Ukraine and Russia have been holding talks.  Zelensky (Ukrainian President) has put a promise not to join NATO on the table.  I can’t see any satisfactory resolution to this, and I suspect Putin is just doing this as a sham negotiation.

 

There is much discussion about making the West less dependent on Russian oil.  Perhaps this will kickstart alternative approaches to energy generation?  A recent edition of CAM (Cambridge Alumni Magazine) focussed on climate change and green issues.  There were two topics I found interesting.  One was a word I had never heard before – dunkelflaute – a German word meaning ‘dark doldrums’, i.e. how to produce energy when it’s dark (no solar); or when there is no wind for wind turbines.  The second is that current solar panels are more efficient and cheaper to make than previously, but still only capture about a third of the wavelength energies contained in the sun’s light emissions.  Work proceeds on how to make them more efficient.  But, forgive the pun, the push to carbon zero may have to go on the back burner until war is over in Ukraine.  Some years ago, much was made about the harnessing of tidal energy with tidal turbines, but that doesn’t seem to have come to fruition.  As a letter in the paper stated the other day, the tide will come in and go out again for as long as the moon continues to go round the earth.  Why are we not making use of it?

 

Thursday March 17th, St Patrick’s Day

 

Another strong Irish presence at the Cheltenham Festival (horse racing).  Shamrocks in the top pocket for Sir A P McCoy.  Lovely weather today in contrast to yesterday.

 

Boris Johnson seems to have returned from Saudi with his tail between his legs, having failed to persuade the Gulf States to turn on the tap to provide more oil.  The Americans were apparently in secret negotiations with them recently but no word on their progress.  The 6 year custodial hostage, Nazanin Naghari-Radcliffe, held by Iran on trumped up spying charges, has returned to the UK, seemingly as a result of the UK repaying a £400 million debt owed to them since the Islamic takeover.

 

Yesterday evening was a very emotional one.  Kirill Karabits, the Ukrainian chief conductor of the Bournemouth Symphony Orchestra, returned for the first time since the war began.  Many of us wore blue and yellow, or waved sunflowers.  Kirill received a standing ovation and then addressed us.  ‘Since I last saw you’, he began, ‘the world has changed; and not for the better’.  He went on to say how moved he had been by the many messages of support.  Suggestions had been made that the orchestra play some Ukrainian music.  But as an audience, he reminded us, we have probably heard more Ukrainian music over the last 13 years (his period of tenure) than anybody else outside Ukraine!  Besides, he stated that Sibelius’ 2nd Symphony, the main work, was written at a time of threat and trouble for Finland in their relationship with Russia, and he believed that its profound nature typified the need for struggle for one’s country.

A reflective Kirill Karabits on the podium at Poole Lighthouse


 

The other main work on the programme was Bax’s Tintagel – a work which was given its premiere by the Bournemouth Municipal Orchestra (as it was then) under Sir Dan Godfrey in 1921. Another piece echoing with the threat or actuality of war (written 1917-19).  Looking at the yellowing pages on the music stands of the first violins it was easy to believe that these were still the original manuscripts.

 

The Poole audience (for bizarrely, the BSO is a Poole based orchestra) is not known for demonstrativeness.  A second standing ovation, which the Sibelius received, is unknown.

 

Tuesday March 29th, 2022

 

It is easy to get depressed.

 

‘Our lot crawls between dry ribs, to keep our metaphysics warm.’

 

 

The war rumbles on, though success against Putin by the Ukrainians has forced a retrenchment and a focus on the southeast of the country, particularly the Black Sea coast.  There are many Russian speakers in the area – shades of the Sudetenland again – and Putin’s chosen tactic is to destroy the cities such as Mariupol, and even to deport many local inhabitants to camps in Russia.  Lyse Doucet reminded us yesterday evening that Putin has stated in the past ‘Ukraine should not exist’, a chilling statement of how he views the true extent of the Russian Empire.  In the meantime, Biden has come under fire again for a rather stupid remark calling for ‘regime change’ in Russia.  Superficially this doesn’t seem unreasonable, but as his critics point out, that is a matter for the Russian people.  There is significant dissent about the war in Russia, but it is hard to gauge how widespread this is.  An open letter signed by many academics has surfaced.  The current ban on demonstrations has led to an underground symbol – a knot of green ribbon – which has started appearing in public places, surreptitiously placed on important Soviet era statues and the like.  An unusual incident in Ukraine brings back memories of ‘fragging’, the deliberate killing of senior officers by disaffected men under their command.  Upset by losses incurred in their engagements with the Ukrainians, a group of Russian conscripts deliberately ran over their commander, a Colonel Medvedev, with a tank.  He later died of the wounds inflicted.  (Although this type of military action existed before, the term fragging came from the use of fragmentation grenades by Vietnam war soldiers in this context).

 

I went to a college reunion in Cambridge this last weekend.  It was a lot better than I anticipated, and the college must have decided that at our age we might be thinking about a legacy, so the boat was well pushed out with an excellent meal and good wines.  I met fellow undergraduates whom I have not seen for over 50 years.  A beautiful day in Cambridge, the streets seemingly filled everywhere with Chinese people, students, visitors, and tourists.  I even saw a young man walking through Downing College with a sweatshirt which proclaimed his name and title (Tom Chen) ‘Chinese Student Welfare Support Team’, or some such.  Some of the David Hockney exhibition was in the Fitzwilliam, and some in a Chinese funded gallery in Downing, the ‘Heong’ gallery.  The room I was allocated in College is usually inhabited in term time by somebody called Qi Qi.  It’s almost certainly a racist remark to say that it sounds like a giant panda, but this is what came to mind…

 

Early the next morning, Cambridge was enshrouded in mist, and I walked around freely, the streets almost empty.

Misty early morning looking downriver at Queens'

Hockney at the Fitzwilliam


 

On my way home, stopping in a motorway service station, I walked back outside to meet a family dragging themselves towards the fast food.  Dragging being the operative word.  The dad, had scarce been able to exit the car before lighting up.  The scrawny son – perhaps 16 to 18, rapidly rolling himself a cigarette.  Mother followed with her daughter.  How sad.  Just hours before I had been walking past the Cavendish laboratory; the Downing site; inhabited by the greatest scientists and Nobel Prize winners.  Why all the scientific advance if this is the result?  To give cigarette-addicted dad a mobile phone to make it easier to waste even more money with instant betting on Paddy Power?

 

Today was the memorial service for the Duke of Edinburgh, and it was brief and moving.  The Queen attended.  The senior lady royals wore a dark green; was this Lovat?  In deference to the Scottish connection?  I don’t know.  Interesting to see the Queen escorted in through a short route rather than the west door – by Prince Andrew.

 

Meanwhile, the free world (for which read the USA) is reeling following a violent episode at the Oscars.  Comedian and (black) actor Will Smith took exception to a tasteless joke about his wife’s alopecia by a black comedian I have never heard of called Chris Rock, and slapped him.  Cue many hours of news anchor time discussing this.  Given the level of violence in many American made films this seems a somewhat hypocritical reaction.  And given what is going on in Ukraine, it seems risible that so much time, and so many column inches are wasted on this little spat in La-La Land.  Unfortunate too in that it probably gives the reactionary white zealots ammunition against black people – you can imagine the story line.  There is some irony in labelling America the Land of the Free.  A radio feature ‘From Our Own Correspondent’ came from Texas, where the Governor recently signed into law a statute that prohibits abortion from about six weeks of gestation – after a beating heart is detected.  In practice this means no abortions, since many women are not aware of pregnancy until later than this.  No exceptions, even in cases of rape.  The USA, in its own fundamentalist way, is also one of the most illiberal countries in the world.

 

Tuesday 5th April

 

Following a beautifully sunny weekend, though with biting northeasterly winds, we have a milder period.  I played golf at Rye, one of the great places of the world for golf.  A very traditional club.  Jacket and tie required.  The town of Rye stands on a promontory, which 700 years ago was on the sea’s edge.  Now the accumulation of shingle has made it a two mile journey to the sea.  The tidal River Rother winds its way muddily past the town.  On the dunes – skylarks.

A typical scene at Rye


 

The war is as unspeakable as ever.  Murder, rape, and torture of civilians is commonplace.  Again, the West is reluctant to get involved, though it continues to provide military equipment and weapons – a ‘nice’ point.  The consequences for us are minor in comparison – increased prices of energy, fuel, commodities, and absence of foodstuffs which come from Ukraine – sunflower oil (the sunflower is the Ukrainian national flower), and grain prices are higher.  You would not think that these are minor to read the papers or hear the dialogue on TV news programmes.

 

Surreally, life continues.  Much anxiety for example, about the ‘draw’ in the World Cup (football) which will take place in Qatar (yes, Qatar) later this year.  England emerge with a favourable draw in a group with Iran, USA, and a playoff team.  Sun headline – ‘It’s Iranian Men’.  Please ask if you don’t understand this.  Plenty of hypocrisy here too – Qatari human rights are appalling; many migrant workers died because of unsafe construction practices during the building of stadia; and homosexuality is illegal.

 

There is much debate about reliance on Russian oil imports (only about 4% in the UK but much higher in many countries), and debate about self-sufficiency as regards energy supplies…

 

Publicity about the construction at Hinkley Point C – a new nuclear power station.  Belatedly we realise that our previous energy policies may be flawed.  A nice cartoon by Blower in the Telegraph illustrates how our countryside may change (with apologies to John Constable):

 

Blower - copyright The Telegraph

 

 

Sunday April 10th

 

Another atrocity – a missile targeting a railway station in the east of Ukraine, where civilians were trying to board trains to evacuate.  There is really nothing good to report about this war.  Surprise visit of PM Boris Johnson to Kyiv, and he is filmed walking around with President Zelensky.  Detractors say publicity stunt, of course.  UK to provide more hardware including anti-ship missiles, aimed at preventing the invasion and occupation of Odessa from the Black Sea.

 

I should mention the awful gathering of Russians in a stadium in central Moscow some weeks ago.  Compulsory attendance and lots of flag waving (we are told that employees of local businesses were given the day off provided they attended).  Putin stalking onto the stage clad in a £3,500 Loro Piana coat.  Loro Piana is apparently the luxury wear of choice for oligarchs and dictators.  The event reminded one forcibly of Hitler, the Nuremberg rallies and the Leni Riefenstahl film ‘Triumph of the Will’.

 

One feels guilty talking of other things.  The skylarks over Rye golf course bring to mind the escape that WWI soldiers felt in observing ordinary natural things during that war.  Isaac Rosenberg wrote in his poem ‘Returning, we hear the larks’:

 

But hark!  Joy-joy-strange joy, Lo!  Heights of night ringing with unseen larks.  Music showering on our upturned list’ning faces’.

 

John McCrae (In Flanders Fields): ‘The larks, still bravely singing, fly, scarce heard amid the guns below’.

 

Is it any wonder that the skylarks on the dunes evoke these thoughts?  And in Rye and on the Romney Marsh, of all places, where, with the wind in a southerly direction, ordinary villagers were able to hear the guns on the Somme in 1916.

 

And a lovely walk in West Dorset yesterday, with some wild garlic gathering, turned into soup today.  Vaccinating the elderly (over 75s) today.  It’s a terrible generalisation I know, but older people seem much nicer than younger people.  They don’t take this vaccination service for granted.  Watching yesterday’s Grand National from Aintree, and now the Masters golf from Augusta, with the rhododendrons, dogwoods, and azaleas in perfect bloom.  Some normality.

Springtime wood anemones in Dorset woodland

Winterborne Houghton church - solidarity with Ukraine

Cottage - Winterborne Stickland


 

Scottie Scheffler won the Masters golf tournament.  Another headline I wish I had had the wit to make up ‘Master-Scheff’.

 

Saturday 30th April

 

Entries to this diary now infrequent.  What is there to say about a war that is new or original?  The West is at war with Russia in all but name, supplying much hardware though not personnel.

 

The different facets of war are unusually expressed in a remarkable book called Children’s War Diaries, collated by Laurel Holliday which I picked up at the second hand book display underneath Waterloo Bridge, just next to the National Theatre some years ago.  In one diary, for example, written by a 13 year old Jewish child in Budapest, Eva Heyman, there is fear and dread and ultimately – silence.  For she was murdered at Auschwitz in October 1944.  The diary only survives because it was saved by her devout Christian maid.  In another, Joan Wyndham, a teenager from a partly aristocratic, partly Bohemian family in London wrote: ‘The bombs are lovely, I think it’s all thrilling.  Nevertheless, as the opposite of death is life, I think I shall get seduced by Rupert tomorrow’.  Like many, it was only when friends were killed that she realised what war really meant, and enlisted in the Women’s Armed Services.

 

So it is with us.  ‘We that have free souls, it touches us not’.  Our life goes on.

 

We have recently had our first holiday in over two years – three days in Wales.  There are some cynics who would guffaw at this suggestion, that any visit to Wales can be a holiday.  A partisan Scottish colleague (despite the fact he lives near Southampton) had hoped to get to the end of his life without ever visiting Wales, a principle he adhered to until a friend invited him to play golf at Royal Porthcawl.

 

To return to the Dylan Thomas theme, we journeyed to Laugharne, where Dylan lived from 1949 until his death in 1953.  Stopping in Llansteffan on the adjacent estuary – the Towy – we found again the ruins of one of those frontier castles which the Normans built as they tried to extend (or defend) their empire into Wales.  At school in Fishguard, the history of Wales was dinned into us at every opportunity, including the fact that the Normans found the unruly Welsh in the north of Pembrokeshire and Carmarthenshire so ‘difficult’ that they had to fortify in a more or less straight line along from West to East.  The line which demarcates English from Welsh speaking inhabitants is sharper than the line of castles and is called the Landsker Line, an Anglo-Saxon term meaning a separation of land.  The Landsker Line runs in a more northwest to southeast direction.  But what we were taught is also an oversimplification.  There are more than 50 castles in Southwest Wales, built by both invaders and defenders – ranging across Cardiganshire, Pembrokeshire, and Carmarthenshire.

Llansteffan Castle looking northeast

After a walk over the castle ruins we drove to the centre of Dylan Thomas culture in Laugharne.  There are several walks here, including the Dylan Thomas trail which takes in The Boathouse where he lived, his writing shed, and his grave in the village churchyard.  Caitlin Thomas is also buried here.  Four years after Dylan’s death she published a book, ‘Leftover Life to Kill’, though perhaps this was a little premature.  She lived on until 1994, over 40 years from Dylan’s death.

 

Laugharne Castle

The Boathouse - looking south towards Sir John's Hill

Peering into Dylan's Writing Shed

Dylan Thomas's Grave

Spring flowering near the Boathouse


Dylan’s Birthday Walk includes Sir John’s Hill, the title of one of his late poems, and the hill and woodland which is thought to relate to Poem in October, celebrating his 30th birthday.  Poem in October however was written in 1944 in Llangain, a small village near the Towy estuary, where his mother’s family owned a cottage.  No matter; he may have intended Sir John’s Hill to be the ‘high hill’ of the poem.  Laugharne town council certainly make the most of the Dylan story.

 

Continuing the Welsh coast walking, I started from Amroth, where we ended the Pembrokeshire coast path trail, and headed east over spectacular and unspoilt headlands, down tiny paths through stunted trees and alleyways of bluebells, up to gorse clad hills where a kestrel, or perhaps a peregrine, whizzed over the edge of the cliff.  A jackdaw flapped up in front, a vole in its beak.  Skylarks sang above; stonechats and warblers hopped from bush to bush or dived into the sedge in the low-lying marshy areas.  A buzzard soared.  The sun shone, and a cold east wind blew.  Always the Gower peninsula visible to the south, and Tenby and Caldey Island to the west.  I stopped for lunch in Pendine at the start of the famous sands, scene of multiple land speed records in the 1920s.  Sadly the MoD requisitioned the beach during WW2 and access is restricted.

Tunnel like paths - ringed with bluebells


Looking west back to Amroth


A tedious low-lying stretch of the coast path is redeemed as one enters the area at the mouth of the Taf estuary, the salt marshes, and finally the woodland of Sir John’s Hill.  Benches placed to enjoy the views carry quotes from Poem in October.  A new one (‘Summery on the Hill’s Shoulder’) also carries a plaque – ‘Bench by Bob; View by God’.

Bench

View


For Dylan Thomas, in ‘Over Sir John’s Hill’, the heron acquired a near mythical, and possibly quasi-religious meaning.  ‘…and slowly the fishing holy stalking heron/ In the river Towy below bows his tilted headstone.’

‘Where the elegiac fisherbird stabs and paddles/ In the pebbly dab-filled / Shallow and sedge…’

 

Walking down through the woods, the strange burbling and growling sounds led me, not to a heronry, as Dylan would have seen, but a colony of little egrets.  Thus time and nature passes…

 

We ate at Brown’s Hotel, a popular drinking spot for Dylan (but one could rhetorically say, of course, where wasn’t?), and enjoyed wonderful steaks from local long aged beef.  Of necessity, we ate there again on the following night, all other places being closed on a Monday.

 

Finally, to round off the holiday, I walked from Kidwelly to Burry Port, much of which goes through Pembrey Country Park, fringed by eight miles of Cefn Sidan beach, which though lesser known, is finer than Pendine.  The beach is littered with the hulks of ships driven ashore by Southwesterly storms.  Another modern interloper, a red kite, cruises above me.  All day, something about Kidwelly, which I had not visited before, nagged at me.  Eventually it came:  the S.S. Kidwelly was the ship commanded by Captain Cat in Under Milk Wood.  As he dreams: ‘…never such seas as any that swamped the decks of the S.S. Kidwelly bellying over the bedclothes and jellyfish slippery sucking him down salt deep into the Davy dark where the fish come biting out and nibble him down to his wishbone, and the long drowned nuzzle up to him.’

 

One of the 'long-drowned' hulks on Cefn Sidan beach

Kidwelly has one of the finest of the frontier castles, mostly complete in its twelfth and thirteenth century conception and building.

Kidwelly Castle

Cattle graze on the salt marshes to the southwest of Kidwelly


 

Eventually it was time to leave, and to make our way to Swansea to watch the Swans play AFC Bournemouth (The Cherries).  Facing a long drive home, I persuade Lindsay to leave after 75 minutes when Bournemouth are running around like headless chickens and have conceded three goals.  I am not forgiven when Bournemouth score three goals in the final quarter of an hour to tie the match.

 

Back in Poole, the sunny cold dry weather with a forceful easterly continues.

 

There is much I could write about, but it is so petty, it is scarcely worth your while to read it.  Allegations in the Daily Mail that a female labour MP (Angela Rayner) crosses and uncrosses her legs while wearing a miniskirt to put Boris Johnson off his speeches – a Basic Instinct moment as it is dubbed.  Another article reveals that a Tory MP has watched porn on his phone in the House (he has resigned).  A headline, ‘Boris Jailed’ excites interest until one realises that sadly, it is Boris Becker who concealed £2.5M from bankruptcy investigators a couple of years ago, who is off to spend time at Her Majesty’s Pleasure.

 

The war?  Yes, of course it continues.  Putin is now concentrating his efforts in the southeast of Ukraine.  Suggestions that Moldova is likely to be the next target.

 

I think it is time to end this section…